Trying to stay awake

Tonight my goal is to stay up until 2 or 3 AM. And not just for kicks. I'm trying to get ready for my first night shift tomorrow. I would like to be able to get my body a little bit adjusted to the night life, but I'll tell ya - it's hard! I took a nap this afternoon, and I have had some coffee, but I'm already fighting heavy eyelids. And it's only 11! That's when my shift will start. It's going to be no good if I'm a zombie when I get to work. Hopefully being active during the shift will save me.

I'm starting to get anxious about the job situation, and the lack of having a job lined up after graduation. A handful of my classmates have accepted job offers and more and more of them are receiving them, and I have no idea what is in store for me. It's a little nerve racking. But I'm really trusting that God has what is best for me, and whatever the plan is will be revealed to me when it needs to be. I would just prefer that I would be let in on the plan sooner than later, ya know? Cause graduation is in 47 days and real life begins in 48. :)

I'm really happy to be home full-time now. Even if I have school responsibilities, it still feels like I'm on a break or something. I get to see all my family and spend time with friends. And take the dog on walks. It's pretty darn awesome. I went to Portland yesterday to finish up some stuff and have dinner with the girls on my floor. It was good, but I've moved enough of my stuff out that it doesn't really feel like a home anymore. I have one or two days left in Portland, but for the most part I'm home!

I can't think of anything else to write about to keep me occupied and distract me from wanting to curl up and fall asleep. And I'm really just rambling so I'm going to get another cup of java and maybe tape my eyes open.